As I sit down to write this, I actually have no idea what I am going to say. For once this will be a personal post where words just come rambling out. Recently I have been feeling a bit lost and do not seem to get why. I am sure everyone feels like this at some point in their life but I just wish the feeling was not getting me down as much as it is.
Life right now revolves around uni on Monday, Tuesday and Friday and then work comes along and takes up my Thursdays and Saturdays leaving me with only Wednesdays and Sundays free. I know most people with full time jobs probably get this number of days off but the problem with that is I can never go home to visit my family for more than a night. Its now been about 4-5 weeks since I've seen them and I am getting so homesick. You'd think by my 3rd year of uni that I would get over it.... but obviously not. Nothing ever exciting seems to happen here, maybe that is because I am extremely poor (rent in Aberdeen is ridiculous) and cannot afford to do anything different. Every time the slightest thing goes wrong, which is always, I automatically blame Aberdeen just because I really do not like it here.
This has all brought me on to thinking - why am I even in Aberdeen? I do not enjoy uni or living away from home and none of my close friends live here (except my boyfriend, which is the only thing that like Aberdeen for). I am half way through my course and know that I definitely want a job that is linked to it in the future therefore the only option is to stick it out. I am a bit fed up of feeling grumpy and sad all of the time though.
I also feel a bit lost with my blog. My motivation just does not seem to be there anymore, this is the same with most other aspects of my life. My sister is giving me her camera as she has got a new one so I am hoping this makes me excited to blog again. Do not get me wrong, I still love blogging but I just never seem to have any ideas for posts that I am happy with. I think another thing that has made me lose my blogging mojo is that my followers has not really moved for months.. I know blogging is not about followers but it just gets me down a little as it kind of makes me feel like my content is not that great.
Anyway on wards and up wards? Hopefully my life will begin to feel more exciting soon. Starting from now, I am definitely going to put a lot more effort into my blog. Motivation best come along quickly!
What type of posts do you like seeing from me?
I know how you feel doll and it will honestly pass, you just have to think what is more important in the long run. I quite uni and decided to study from home and it really helped, especially with money worries and stress etc xxx
ReplyDeleteBlondeOfCarbs♥
studying at home sounds great, I would love to do that! thank you x
Deletecheer up! You are almost there and trust me, having a degree will be worth it. Also, it is almost the end of the year, and you will have a few weeks off soon! I always loved your outfit of the day posts :) Hope you feel better soon!
ReplyDeletePam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥
yeah I just have to keep telling myself to think of my degree, thank you x
DeleteWhen you have something effecting you like uni does then it will definitely effect other parts eg your blog. You should definitely focus on you or even a weekend away with your boyfriend. Its good to take a break sometimes x
ReplyDeleteEmma | Emmys Beauty Cave
A break would be amazing, would love a weekend away! its just the money that is stopping us... I am sure sometime in the future we will get a chance though:) x
DeleteI literally feel the exact same as this. I'm in the same position, I'm in my 3rd year of uni, and working alongside, leaving 1 or 2 days off a week for free time. The stress of uni is getting to me, as is the length of my to do list. And motivation for my blog has gone out the window because of all of this :(
ReplyDeleteHope you're ok lovely, always here if you need a chat x
Abi | abistreetx
its horrible isnt it:(? same here, always here to talk x
DeleteHello lovely - firstly, thank you for the sweet comment on my blog! Secondly, I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling a little lost ): but you're already in the third year which is a huge achievement. I felt like this in each year of my degree, wondering why I'd passed up a chance to study fashion journalism in London at LCF for dowdy Southampton, but instead I focused all my effort on the end-goal, a shiny degree for dat career, and my blog. I was homesick and didn't have enough time to go home so I spent my free time working on ideas for my blog instead of worrying about things too much. There's a feature on my magazine that articulates a lot of this:- http://www.aforaesthetic.com/2015/09/lets-float.html (:
ReplyDeleteHope things start looking up for you soon! As someone who went through this too, I can safely say it does get much, much better! xx
yeah the final outcome will be great, its just getting through it... thank you so much!
DeleteI really hope you get your mojo back!! Keep going, it'll turn out for the best in the end! Lots of love xxx
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Its the beginning of a new academic year, you are entitled to feel home sick and lost and all the other things that come with it! As soon as you get into a project and on a good schedule you'll feel better! Plus a trip home to see the fam will remind you that they aren't too far away :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon and as for that camera I can't wait to see what you do with it! one word of advice - keep that battery charged! That will help motivate you too, theres nothing worse than needing to take some pictures but you have to wait for the battery to fully charge!
xxx